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Originally Posted by Bedobones
Hi Yellowted: Thanks for commenting on my post! BTW, I love your avatar! A swan is my avatar on YouTube. Yes, I take a certain pleasure in referring to myself a "crazy". (My wife is less entusiastic.) I also try to use it to be somewhat the person I really am... but to truly do this, would require some MAJOR changes (I'm transgendered as well as having major depression & anxiety disorder...) So although it helps, I still am "hiding" allot of what I consider to be my "true self".  |
Hi bedobones, thanks for liking my avitar, it is a photo i took a few years ago, so kind of proud how it turned out.
what is it you think you are achieving by 'hiding' a lot of stuff about yourself?
is it worth the sacrifice of being free to be your true self, having peace of mind that friends and loved ones like you for who you really are not a pretend or false you?
it must be very tiring constantly trying to remember what bits you have told to who. life although it may be rocky at first would be much simpler if you were not hiding things.
i hid a lot of stuff for many years, trying to be what people thought i should be and was never happy at all, really depressed, and angry for not being able to be the real me. then i cracked up, and everything i had been hiding away came flooding out, ok i lost a few friends and family in the deluge but i came out the other side far more relaxed, liking who i was- the real me, and i found the friends i have now accept and like me simply for being me.