Being vulnerable is one of the hardest things we can do. I have PTSD as well with my ED and I have had to work really hard the last few years to share it with people in my life. I've gotten to a place where I don't feel safe about people not knowing my stuff - in case something happens - but I still beat the crap out of myself for having these things that I have to live with. It's so much easier to be compassionate and understanding with other people...I hope someday I can give that to myself without it feeling wrong or awkward.