Therapy for my ED has been instrumental in my recovery. It sounds like you have a good t, and I think you should forgive yourself and go back and give it another try. I think sometimes we have such a skewed vision of ourselves. Your t probably just sees you as someone who needs help and is willing to help you. So I wouldn't feel too bad about it. (Well I would but you know what I mean - so much easier to give advice than take it!) Maybe just apologize for leaving things the way you did, if that'll help you feel better about it. Just my two cents. I tried my whole life to do this alone - never got anywhere til I started accepting the help of others.