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Originally Posted by Perna
Hellion, I don't think it is about being able to "up and choose that I wasn't a victim of the things I was" but what one does from then on, if one gets stuck either looking back at those things or looking at new things with cloudy glasses based on the previous and deciding it's going to rain on the present activities when it's actually a sunny day.
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I guess I just don't see it as so much of a choice, I mean the reason I get stuck looking back at those things is due to having PTSD...memories hit me and I can get kind of stuck in it not because I choose to, or because I think its easier not to move on...but because that is what PTSD does.
Also, where I come from its very likely it could rain on present activities regardless of how sunny of a day it is. I mean that literally and figuratively. Or even if everything is good I still have symptoms and thoughts going on in my head which can prevent me from enjoying it.
I guess I don't see how to choose not to worry about stuff that has happened and could happen again. I try not to always be prepared for the worst but it seems having PTSD makes me always prepared for the worst even if I do try to just relax and not dwell on crap. Also there is just the whole issue of repeatedly thinking things where getting better or working out somewhat only for things to take a turn for the worst.