Thanks for your reply and good to know you're still talking. I'm sorry you had a bad sleep - that makes it even worse. Yes insurance companies can be awful sometimes. Are you getting financial assistance from the father of your son? Are you taking any meds for physical pain?

Sometimes its helpful to make a list of problems - one side for problems you don't have any control over. Since there isn't any fast solutions for those problems, put that on a mental shelf. I know its hard to do but it can work. The other side of the list is things you can do - take those one at a time without pressuring yourself.

I had a huge blowup with my husband today, who I've been trying to separate from for 8 yrs now. He's mentally abusive and I'm trapped financially and trying to get a job at the age of 53. I have 2 girls, 11 and 15. My husband is Muslim and decided to get another wife 8 yrs ago. My life is a mess and on days like this, I feel scared and emotionally paralyzed. I can relate to that numb feeling. I'm only sharing so you don't feel alone in your suffering. I'm not saying my situation is worse - suffering is suffering.

For now be patient and kind to yourself. My girls actually keep me going and I hope your son will do the same for you. Tap into that resilience deep inside you and let your son inspire strength in you.