Best piece of advice - if you aren't looking for a wife, stop dating. You've got time. Right now you need to be focusing on you. A couple close friends (or siblings, cousins, etc.) that you can really be yourself with and be honest with and a good therapist who is willing to really dig down and help you get an accurate diagnosis is what you need. I know it's hard, but I'm serious about dating. It will do more harm than good right now and I'm not saying that because of your possible psych issues. I'm 30, I've dated a lot. I also spend a lot of time with teenagers. If you can focus on you and getting through the next few years (like you said you want to), I promise the other side will look different for you. "These are the best years of your life," does not apply to you. That time frame wasn't the best years of my life either. And that's okay. I'm saying all this to really say hold on, don't give up. You deserve the best in life and you can get it. But right now get yourself situated with a good pdoc, therapist, support system and right meds. For what it's worth my ADD meds (that I took prior to my BP diagnosis I got in Feb 2012) sent my rage through the roof. Keep posting here. You express yourself well. Use the folks here as a support system until it starts to all fit together. That's what I am doing. Just know that someone cares, I care. Don't give up, you are worth the fight!