Just to echo what has already been said: you're not alone!

I've got severe anxiety issues too, as do maaaany other people (it's surprisingly common, sadly :|) so please try not to feel so alone, because, while we are unwell, we are many, and so we can stand together - hence, this awesome place!

You have kids, and they look to you for strength, support, and answers. Perhaps you can help teach them how to handle something you perhaps didn't have the help for yourself. They are not unlucky to have you, they are lucky to have you, because you can guide them where others are often alone.

*hugs*

Heart goes out to you. I feel or have felt the same way as you do about your anxiety(ies) so I do understand (if only partly, given no two situations are the same) how desperate and alone you probably feel. To give you an idea; I am often stuck at home, because I struggle with so much as going to Tescos but 10-15 minutes walk from where I live. I'm "disabled", and "unable to work". I messed up school and college because of how I am. Honestly, just hope you know you're not alone.