Blue hun
Honestly if you weren't having a struggle right now I would be worried about you. So your hypo went to hell in a handbasket , it sucks , it blows and you know its ok to be mad, pissed, evil feeling. Some times all the energy we use to try and NOT allow ourselves to feel angry is hurting us more than just letting ourselves be angry, mad , pissed, evil.
You have been dealing with your youngest and bully stuff.
You have been dealing with the oldest and his broken arm.
You had all the work with your business.
Let yourself off the hook for a while .. everyone is going to keep moving right along.
Basically, get out of your own head.
Your not weak when it comes to the boyfriend, you are a loving caring woman that will make whatever changes you need to in your life when you make them.
You can sit back and take a deep breathe, you can.
I'm here for ya