Thank you all. It's so stupid, but these past six days have confirmed for me that I do in fact suffer from Bipolar disorder. I've been denying this for years!!! The trauma of realizing that is very much tempered by having people to talk to.

I will call my doctor and I will just pray that there is some sort of solution. I'll also try and remember to update this post down the line with my end result for others who will need to see it.