I'm 18, about to graduate high school. I'm in AP classes and I live a fairly high pressure life. In the eyes of my dad, who's a doctor, I'm the perfect child but lately things just haven't been feeling right. For about a year now I've been going through periods where I feel so hopeless and like no matter what I do I'm not good enough, I've even thought about ways I could kill myself, but at other times I feel like the world is at the tip of my fingers and I can do anything I want. I've been reckless...driving extremely fast...partying too much. I don't really know who I am anymore and I don't know if it's because I have so much pressure on me to do well or if there's something bigger going on.