I think that's what I'm in right now........couldn't figure out if I was manic OR depressed, because I'm experiencing symptoms of both. I'm agitated, angry, energetic, irritable, can't stop moving or tapping my feet, etc. but I'm also feeling terribly sad and crying every day, and I don't DO that. I feel like I could sooooo flip my cork---I'm definitely sitting on the fence---but I have no intention of doing anything stupid. I couldn't leave my family or friends holding the bag like that......it would be SO unfair to them. I'm just utterly miserable and throwing myself a pity-party is all.

On top of all the other crappy things that have happened recently, I found out today that my health insurance ended a full month before I expected it to. I thought I had all this month to use it. WRONG---it ended on the 30th of last month, even though I wasn't fired till May 2nd. Now I don't even know how I'll be able to see my pdoc on the 31st, unless I can self-pay somehow. And this is not a good time to be unable to see him!!