I hope you have a t helping you thru this. now would be the time to call and see if you can get an appt sooner rather than later. you are stronger than you think. you are making good choices by not drinking, that's tough. there is no time table that says "you should be better now". you get better in your own time, when your body and your mind heals from the trauma. you cant force that time table. everybody grieves according to their own schedule. T should be your best friend right now helping you through this. hang in there