I have been diagnosed bp1 severe anxiety agoraphobia n PTSD.. I live in a very small community n finding a therapist is seeming impossible ... Monday I went to 3 different places(which is hard for me to do I hate any public places I don't feel safe) only to be turned away by two n pathways told me they could make me an app for weeks out.. And yes I have a great family but Im not sure if sometimes they enabling my illness instead of helping it. They have the best intentions. Today is the first day iv been able to think clearly in weeks n the guilt I carry makes me sad. Im 30 with 2 kids n I'm tired of hurting my family n kids. I just wanna be able to be the mother my mother taught me to be and enjoy it. I know having clear thought won't last long n I really do want help.