You spoke for me in your post! I'm right there with you! And there IS hope. It's all about this new journey for me... a need and desire to understand, be ME (and I KNOW the REAL me is in here somewhere, cuz ive seen her) without all the "noise" and "chaos". Embrace the knowledge, and awareness of dx, symptoms, triggers, get mad, succeed, fail, win, lose, try again. And with a little (or alot) of help from meds, tx and support from loved ones who care, support and don't judge or give up on us there is no limit to being "normal" (whatever that means to you/me/others) AND mentally ill and I say this WITHOUT Lamictal
I like your spunk even if it is hyo/mania driven.... it is real. Glad you are feeling good. Take care of you.