(((Carol)))
I'm sorry that your bf couldn't handle being with you anymore.
I have had similar experiences with long-standing relationships as well. My ex-hub couldn't handle anymore of my trauma (emotional & physical), he wanted me to just accept it already and move towards the future without my ongoing depression and self-hate. NOT realistic! I also lost my best friend a year or two ago for the same reason.
Very painful to lose those that supposedly love us. And the walls become harder to break...

Gentle hugs to you