Thank you Echos and thank biblol and biiv.your words are much comfort to me and i will pm you echos if you dont mind of course.I have so much hurt and so many things that have happened to me in the past that i am well lets just say,a little messed up,although i do hide it really well,but i guess my illness is a result of all the hidden pain.I have tried to end it on many occasions and always i keep waking up the next day,with more scars physical and mental.I want to make it all better this time.