I realized recently that I am almost always afraid, nervous, watching. I also see that it has been ehausting me. I have been able to sleep lately, which helps, but aparently not tonight. I have been dealing with the trauma forever but the fear in my body doesn't want to chnge easily. I am currently on hyper-alert. It is not any fun. Nothing rational in my fear right now. What a kick in the pants. Some days I can redirect better then others. Any wise words out there?