Its not impossible that meds are making you worse... Some AD's have made people suicidal, some benzos have made people anxious, so don't discount that thought because you may be onto something here. Have you done a before and after meds check to ascertain what you experienced before meds and the degree of severity, in comparison with now?

If the medicated list is worse than the unmedicated, I strongly suggest you speak to your pdoc about different options.

I dont know if my meds actually made me more symptomatic, or if it was my "I'm ill I take crazy pills, mindset, but I was definitly worse medicated.

Hope you get to the bottom of this, you deserve much better