After looking into borderline personality disorder, I think it fits me. A lot of the criteria seems too familiar. I'm not sure how to talk to my T about it. I just started seeing her and I've had about 6 sessions so far. One of my concerns is from what I read some people don't like to work with people with BPD. From what I read it is difficult to maintain a patient/client releationship and the client usually ends up quiting in a fit of rage.

I don't get fateful though. I tend to turn all my anger inward. It seems like the only way I can manage it. I stopped expressing my emotions, I think I grew up in an invladating enviroment so I just learned to act how people expected me too. I never learned how to break that behaivor. The constant emptiness and lack of self don't make it any easier.

I am affraid she will drop me as a patient and I will have to start over with someone new. I feel so alone in these issues. I try talking to my wife and she offers little and tells me to talk to my T. I think if my T dropped me, I would feel hopeless.

Does anyone have any experience with this?