It sounds like you went back into survival mode. So that would make sense that your alters behaved as they did in the past. I think what amandalouise is saying is you are aware your alters exist now and if at some point in the future you wanted to reestablish co consciousnesses with one or all you would already have the path to do so. That you wouldn't have to spend the same amount of time breaking through the wall. There would already be openings. And you would have the knowledge that you can have co consciousness with your alters. At least I think that is what she meant.