Who is telling you that medicine is necessarily the answer? If I have said something that sounded like that, I'll feel bad. I think that medicine is one thing that can help, and that if one combination didn't work, that indicates that you haven't found the right one yet. But, no, it doesn't fix the problem. I've never tried prescription antidepressants myself. St. John's Wort works for me. It's not very expensive and you don't need a prescription. Maybe that would be something for you to consider.

But, I think that therapy, and finding a new way of looking at the world and seeing yourself, will make a more lasting and significant difference. I know you don't think you can afford it, but there are places that offer therapy and make it affordable, and there are people or organizations that will help.

My point is that you don't have to stay depressed. Keep looking for something that will help you. That may include a combination of medication, therapy, social support, and making changes in your life. Depression is not caused by just one thing. There are biological, psychological, and social factors involved, and they should all be considered.

I've been disappointed too about the advice (or lack thereof) that I have received regarding medication. First of all, that nobody thought about offering it to me a long time ago, and then that after I started using SJW and it was working, then they wanted me to switch to something prescription. Yes, you probably do know what's best for yourself. But also consider that depression makes things seem worse than they are. You do have worth, you can have a bright future, and there are people who care about you. It's hard right now, but you can make it through this and one day you will wonder how you could have ever felt the way that you do now.
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