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Originally Posted by hankster
A t uses his feelings to figure out what's going with the client.
I would be more concerned that you throw the same tantrum every time he goes on vacation, so that you say he's used to it. Over the years, my reaction to my ts trips has been changing.
There is an obvious kind of love we try to give our t which they must and will reject because it is like a bribe, but eventually there will be a much more subtle childlike gentle trusting love you will offer your t. It will be a truer love and really a more adult and equal love. But this demanding isn't it.
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Well, I cant say I have a tantrum when he goes away, which has been many, many times to all parts of the world. This particular time, yes I am being childlike. I'm going through a very difficult time with anger issues and his being gone will be especially hard. And, yes I'm taking some of it out on him. But I dont think he minds, he has been wanting me to get angry for a long time.
I do believe my love for him has evolved and matured into a more adult love over the years. It is gentler, it doesn't have the intensity it had when it first started, or like what I'm experiencing at the moment.
I want him to put my love somewhere special, and I can only hope he finds out where it belongs.