Well I am not dealing with quite the same situation I'm not a virgin, made it to college but had to drop out and I don't really have friends except one I haven't talked to in a while...but I can understand hating ones self and thinking of suicide every day. Not a good place to be that is for sure. Sorry I don't have much advice its to the point with me I am considering the psych ward again though I really don't want to but I'd rather do that than live in fear of myself.

Anyways I hope you can start feeling a little better, I think some good advice had been given...going to therapy or even changing up your daily routine to something a bit more active could have a positive impact. But if that proves ineffective then its not a terrible idea to consider hospitalization if you don't think you can keep from acting on the thoughts...though I hope its not to that point for you since that really sucks.