Thank you oh 2:22 that's a good thing

I'm drudging through this workday, about to run out of here screaming! But it's ok...

So on Wednesday, son was in surgery, and I was at drugstore and he called, I'd agreed to help him with his invoices for his business, pretty quick easy work for me.
But then he went on with what a tough time he's having even standing with the pain meds he's on - has hemroids hurting like hell - meanwhile supervising a concrete pour at his jobsite. Butt hurting so bad you can't sit - worst pain ever - I could relate, after childbirth, I could relate. So I bought him a butt donut to sit on... and brought it to him at his worksite. Wtf, ... I fell for the butt donut routine! Well he was very grateful. He went in for a kiss and I obligingly let him kiss my cheek, didn't want to embarrass him in front of his employees. Soooo wimpy of me.

He came by this morning and loaned me money... I'm overdrawn again. He invited me and the kids camping - pretty dumb idea with everyone in casts and broken bones. But I guess it was a nice thought. We had some clear discussion, he was apologetic blah blah blah. Says that the "shut up beofre I have to put my boot in your mouth" does not mean he plans to literally touch me physically and that I should know he'd never do that. I guess I may have overreacted on that one. Looking back I see I chose some extra drama with that one. We had to leave the convo to be continued... I resisted breaking out my spreadsheet about our limited compared values.

Anyway, I am doing something fun tonight. My inclination is to flake and take (only as prescribed) pills and crawl in bed. But I'm going to do this workshop with 2 lady friends. It's about the Enneagram, all the numbers, personality types. Seems interesting. So we're going to a wine bar for dinner (possible uh-oh - I'll promise to at least try to be moderate with the vino) then the class is from 7-9. We continue the class tomorrow all day.

I hope I don't flake out. I want to live my life and quit hiding in my bed, or do I? I do and I don't... and it's not like one is any easier than the other. Neither are easy for me.

Thanks you guys, love you.