So I'm new to this and I'm not sure how this site works. I just need to let off some steam. For almost 8 yeas now i think I've been mentally and emotionally abused by my mums boyfriend. He's always telling me how I'm not good enough and constantly correcting me about everything. He always points out my flaws and makes me feel worthless. On top of that, my pathetic excuse for as father lives about 3 hours away in London and he never keeps in touch. This just adds to how useless and unwanted I am. I was bullied to the point where I self harmed and almost took my own life. I'm severely underweight but i still think im fat and i cant stand to look in the mirror because I listened to what everyone around me said and i started to believe everything they said. Now I found true friends and when I'm with them I feel really happy and alive but the moment they go I feel all lost and anxious. I have trust issues due to my poor past and the people I grew up around. I just want some help but I'm not sure what to do. Ive told only my 2 best friends everything about the almost suicide and the self harming and they have tries to help me but it doesn't really work. I think I need counselling but my mum wants some perfect child and I'm scared to ask. What can I do?! This is my final cry I help so any advice would be welcome.