Hi. I have had PTSD since 2005. I haven't been on here in years.

Things have been a mess the past 2 years - lost my job, still never found one, and recently got married. My wedding was a mess and we ended up eloping. Lots of family issues.

Tomorrow I have to go to my shower and I feel terrible. In the past I often had the unreal feeling and like things are a nightmare. That's how I feel.