Sorry. I do not think there are many people on here that SI so they do not understand. I am more bulimic that SI but resort to it when something happens at work that makes me feel worthless, a bottom feeder, trapped, and increases my self hatred. I have not burned in a couple og months but at work I will open up an paper clip and graze the end up and down my arm. It does not cut or leave a scar. It is just enough to cause light scratches and gives me the pain I need to self punish. I know we are not suppose to do anything that resembles SI but it can be hard when it is a go to coping mechanism.

My T is more concerned with me beating myself up when I resort to old habits. He says it is understandable while I am healing and th urges will diminish over time and they have.