I feel so gutted tonight. I spent the evening at a carnival at my older child's school. I had to smile and interact and be normal, and that was probably good. But the whole time, I kept thinking wtf, T? Who the hell did you turn into? I feel humiliated for having been terminated against my will.

**** her.

I am considering sending one more letter, just to revoke any prior authorizations for releases of information that I have signed. I can see her contacting my pdoc, for whom she has a release. I don't think I need her sharing her opinion of me with anyone ever again.