Thanks...You know I haven't even been around for a few days (but nothing all that eventful happened, just stuff like being bugged to go - but when the answer was presistantly and in no uncertain terms "No!" finally they all backed off) - just haven't been feeling too well....
And the thing of it is, really I AM MUCH more satisfied doing nothing - that's no fun either, BUT then everything works properly, I just get vary strong emotions - most complained about by others is anger, but it's actually any emotion - sometimes I might laugh hierarchically for no apparent reason, or start crying out of the blue, exc. But everything works, my thought process is basically o.k., just strong emotions, but able to somehow keep living right through them (not easy but I do it).
Those strong emotions is what tends to really bother other poeple...That's the problem - some of those medications do actually work for the effect you wanted, but then messed with other things, and that is why I didn't want it.
But the situation I seem to have for now is, if I do something that makes others happy, I am miserable. - BUT if I just leave it alone, where so far I am the most happy, everyone else is bothered by it...
Well, I hate to sound like a child - although it wouldn't be the first time I have head that - but anyway: -
This is jut so - NOT fair!