Hey unhappyguy - thanks for checking in. I agree with your decision not to see t's if they just try to pressure you into something that doesn't work for you, especially around sexuality. Asexuality is a valid orientation. I guess a lot of people just don't understand it. I can relate to the meds - I'm on three different ones and even though, when I started taking these particular ones last year, my partner said she noticed a drastic difference in me, I feel like nothing's changed. It's frustrating.
I hope things start looking up for you at some point. If you ever need to vent, or just need someone to listen to you, or just want to have a conversation, feel free to PM me.