Hi Consumed84,
I have been able to work during depression, but my performance is very low. I am ashamed because I am far beyond my work plan and it seems there is nothing I can do to improve my production. I do not live in the US (I did, I was there from 2001-2012, with some parentheses) but everywhere around the world is becoming like you guys, as you are the dominant culture right now. All the pressure you have been experiencing for decades and decades we are now immerse in, and, believe me, it is worse for us. In any event, for different reasons i cannot explain right now, I still have a job, despite my shortfalls. But that does not make me happier, although I think if I were without a salary I would feel worse than now and more desperate. Last week I had to travel to work, and I did it quite well. This was because the job was interacting with people and prepare some short writings (which is easier) and not having to write or edit long documents by myself, or other task that are really stressful to me right now, things that i enjoyed doing 5 years ago but that now feel like extremely difficult, stressful, etc. i just cannot deal with them. They scare me even before starting to think about them. And they pile pn my desk, and the pile becomes taller and taller, and I spend the day just looking at the pile, or having 5 doc open at the same time, not working productively in any of them. I get warning emails and calls. it just save me that my team leader is a procrastinator herself, and I think she is going through depression as well, so, in fact our group is kind of a mess. While in previous years I managed to finish stuff somehow, I am not sure what is going to happen at the end of my year this time. Thank you again for giving me the opportunity to share how I feel, and good luck with your feelings! i hope for you and for me the same, to feel better soon