So I managed to get the doctor to put me on Naltrexone for Alcohol and Opiate craving cessation and its also a blocker... yet... I got put on Klonopin... and have been eating them like candy. I try so hard not to but I know they're a benzo and I just want that drug rush high even though i won't get it from klonopin. -_-" Its like I try to get clean but run into something else.

Klonopin is also the only thing that keeps me from having panic attacks and yes I've tried Buspar and many other anti anxiety meds. So I'm having some real issues. I guess im just really ashamed that i know im gonna have to keep it quiet and stuff and idk.