I know you requested no comments AS, which is why I edited my earlier post. I mean no disrespect with my reply here... as we have never had negative words I hope you don't feel any disrespect from me (I certainly don't feel it, however, I too, make mistakes, endlessly, it seems sigh)

Thanks from me for putting yourself out there though. That takes strength and courage, in my book.... to examine your "patterns"... we ALL have them imo . I think that more people relate to at least some of this than you may realise, including me,

I would also like to apologize to anyone I have EVER hurt here. I truly hate hurting people (and I also hate being hurt.... who doesn't ..)