is it possible to have HPD and not be over the top with it. I mean I feel like I try to be the center of attension a lot thats why I sought out doing modeling cause it makes me feel as such.
but I would not say I feel that way all the time it fluxuates everyday. But a lot of the time I just do show behavior where i want to be the center of attension. lol I have even joked that I am attension *****...and its kind of true...but its never gone in such sever directions its put me at risk or friendships of mine at risk. But I have a fair amount of social anxiety also...and only until a year or two ago...did not have what I would refer to as a sigificatn social circle. But I do notice that sometimes my disire to think primary of myself and not consider ones I care for gets in the way of my friendships.

I don't know how to pin point this its odd I do show sings of these kinds of things a lot of the time its not entirly text books as to how exactly this is always looked at, nor does it go on everday. But I am a person that like attension on me, wither in relationship, flirting, or in that I am an enterainer. Sometimes I do ok with this and sometimes I don't.