Dear T,

It was hard having these two weeks without a session and I couldn't wait to see you yesterday. Then you said, "I missed you", and I froze. I responded by saying, "Huh?? Ok, yeah, um, it's good to see you ... errrr" but what I meant was, "I missed you too!"

Why couldn't I say it? And why did you say it?? I got suspicious that you didn't really mean it, and that it was some kind of test, or some clever T strategy to make me feel wanted and needed. Probably. You missed me? Why? What did you mean? Did you really miss me? I'm still suspicious. But I'd like to believe that you really did.

Maybe I'll be able to say it next time, but I'm not sure I want you to know ... maybe you'll never say it again, and I've lost that opportunity. Oh well...

SP