Eternal Winter, I want to congratulate you on remaining sober for 10 months.

I agree with the efforts to help you understand why you cannot drink. You recognize that you were alcohol-dependent. And you know that you have bipolar illness. Chances are you were "self-medicating" with alcohol as a treatment for bipolar illness. But you can't go back to drinking without making the whole situation worsen for you in a very quick period of time.

Alcohol makes bipolar illness worse. It is a central nervous system depressant; It also kills brain cells; I don't know about you, but I need every one I've got!

Alcoholism cannot be cured, Eternal Winter. It can be brought into remission but
never cured. The one thing in life that you cannot do if you want to remain healthy is to drink alcohol. You need to accept that you can never again use it and that to do so will eventually destroy your brain and your liver, the digestive system and who knows what else.

Please instill in your mind that you can do almost anything you want to do in life
except drink alcohol. That acceptance is difficult but it will save your life if you
apply it.

You are on the road to remission; please keep it that way. The decision is always yours.