I think every single day about how everyone is happier than me and "why do I have this mental illness every day" but I realize that most people are unhappy and put on a show, so that people think they are happy and doing well. I don't wish this on anyone, but it would be nice if people were honest and said how they REALLY felt!

I have had a mental illness for 20 years and am very open about it. I'm me, and if you don't like it ... well ... there's nothing I can do! I've tried every medication out there, go to regular therapy weekly, and am starting ECT soon. It is hard to be happy with everything going on, so I'm just being myself.