Please stay away from me, I am a lost person and I hurt others, although I don't mean to. So from now on I will be silent, as I always should have been, and concentrate on hurting the person who should be hurt.... ME

I don't really need, and certainly don't deserve, any positive help....

I do a good enough job of hurting me by myself. And I will try not to hurt Mr Bear

Although maybe the best method not to hurt him is to go far far far away, for ever, to live, for a while, on the streets (where I belong ..) so he can find someone who is worth his love. This is dramatic, and probably out of touch with reality.... or is it.. perhaps I do deserve all the bad things I have and more. It's how I feel though. I guess I am entitled to make my own choice, whether to live or die And the moment for the decision is coming close.