I'm a bit confused if it's just me or if it's someone else, so I thought that I could write about it here to see if you have any thoughts on this.

I suspect that I'm feeling another alter's feelings - a little one (8, 10-ish?). The thing is, there are situations where I feel like I shouldn't react/feel the way I do (I'm in my later teens myself). Here are two examples, it happened a few weeks ago:

I was in a store with a family member. I found this children's book and I got really excited, I liked it very much. I don't know if it's me, but "I" sometimes love these childish things... walking in a store I randomly find something that I love. Today, I found a coloring book for kids, and it was just lovely. I can't say for sure that "I" am feeling this way, or if it's someone on the inside. I don't feel like me, like, really me (teen-me) would enjoy a coloring book, yet I just had to buy it?

I'm thinking that I can use it as a way of calming myself/others inside of me down, a way of distracting, you know. It just confuses me a little - I don't really get why I like these things so much? I mean, people in my age wouldn't jump up and down seeing a children's book (it was special though, those pictures were so nice-looking!) or a coloring book (that one was so cute!). Could it be that I'm just childish or could it be that I'm somehow feeling the feelings of another, little, alter?

As far as I know, I don't have a kid alter. It could be, not impossible, but I haven't got the feeling of having one in the same way as I've got with my persecutor or cognitive alter... but if I have a kid alter I can understand why it has been needed (I've blocked out plenty of time from the past, there are many parts in the past that are blurry or that are gone for me, that I can't remember).

Thanks for reading. Any thoughts on this that you'd like to share? I'm happy for any reply.

~ The host