Hello Winkynjr: May I respectfully observe that one can only push through pain (whether physical or emotional) for so long? Somewhere, or some way, you must find some support for your situation. As I have read through the comments to your post I see a variety of suggestions. Of course, only you can make it happen... but then you already know that. Sometimes, depending on where you live, there may be low income advocacy programs that can help people access needed services & provide some support. If there is one in your area this might be another possibility if you can muster the will to press on. I hope you do! My best wishes to you!