Forever is pretty intenseley for the last 16 years. Mostly in the last 10. Have had a good t for the last ten. Sounds like forever. I can see changes, couldn't even discuss this stuff before but now I can see other ways that I am affected. FEAR, ANXIETY, and this latest bout of what they are calling depression but I wonder if you can get an unbearable resurgence of the ptsd to do the same thing, or is it the same thing as depression at this point? I don't have it figured out. I can say that words around my experience are triggering to me, all of the time. I can say that my current life has been frought with disasters, stress, conflict and hell. My old life was full of boobie traps, memories of torture and abuse beyond what anyone I know discusses. I am trying to feel better. Working hard on it. Yes, I am general because being too specific scares the hell out of me. My thoughts are disjointed still though getting better. I can see pretty clearly. That's what scares me.