I have struggled with my need to be loved by him, and i believe he does. I have made progress in therapy and am working on trying to start a new life. My t has helped me tremendously. When We are in session How I Feel towards him is not the focus at all. I'm generally content with our relationship, but occasionallymy feelings of love do consume me. I would never seek another therapist.
I need to put Everything into perspective right now. Thank you all for your insight, it is helpful.