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I react the same way when I get to the point in my depression that I just can't take anything anymore. When I'm in that mindset, I will literally blow up at everything and everyone that causes me even the slightest bit of irritation.
This past Friday was a perfect example ... I honestly think I spent the entire day in an irritated state (I was definitely guilty of snapping at a few people, including my boss).
It really sucks, because it's a vicious circle -- you get irritated and start flying off the hinges, then you feel guilty about flying off the hinges so you get depressed even more (which in turn makes you even more irritated).
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Like most people, I genuinely don't think I would still be around if it wasn't for music, so here's a hat-tip to some of my favorite lyrics (for one reason or another):
"If I speak at one constant volume / At one constant pitch / At one constant rhythm, right into your ear / You still won't hear, you still won't hear / You still won't hear, you still won't hear" - 'A Small Victory' by Faith No More
"Difficult enough to feel a little bit / Disappointed, passed over / When I've looked right through / To see you naked and oblivious / And you don't see me" '3 Libras' by A Perfect Circle
"Loneliness it shadows me, quicker than darkness / Crawls to the surface of my skin, visibly surrounded by it / Black is all I feel, so this is how it feels to be free" 'Am I Inside' by Alice in Chains
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