Hi all ... So about three weeks ago.. after 13 yrs of behavior that seemed off or even doing thing I later regret and cant take back.. I was diagnosed BP In which I am in a way kinda happy to know. I was starting to think that for some unknown reason I was just trying to destroy my own life. Even worse the fact that I also destroyed my whole families life. Then when I do come out of it I am left with what use to be my life ....And a lot of people My husband, my kids, my parents..extremely hurt.
So after this last long horrible Mania I went on, I got really depressed worst I have ever been. I decided I am gonna go talk to someone. After 13 yrs I finally talked to a therapist who kinda told me what she thought was going on. Then on to Psychiatrist who did diagnose it as BP I.
So I am just starting meds but my biggest fear is another Manic episode. I am scared of it because I know at that time and there usually a few months long, I refuse to listen to anyone. I will argue tell them there wrong.
So my question is when you do go manic what do you do to try and get yourself to realize there right?
I wanna say I have not gone manic since the diagnosis and I am not sure if since I know what is going on it will help me realize uhh ohh time to get help.