My heart keeps breaking and I am scared to death
I never thought that I could lose myself
Everything is so exposed and sick
Every moment spent wondering what makes me tick
For so long I thought the darkness was gone
Things were so great, I had healed and moved on
To much disappointment I was incredibly wrong
And now I don’t know if I’ll ever belong
My stomach just burns as my breath gives way to all the tears from what I cannot change, from all the words that I cannot say, from this place of torment, confusion and pain
I don’t recognize myself and I am slowly caving in
Nothing seems to matter and I just want it all to end
I’ve never felt this alone or scared knowing now the things I must face
There’s nothing anyone can say or do, I am so displaced
I cry every single day and my daughters ask what’s wrong
I don’t even know what to say as I try to just move on
I’m trapped in an ill equipped body with a broken brain
With children these aren’t exactly things that I can just explain
I used to always hope and pray and I believed so much in love
But my soul has just been robbed and bruised and I don’t know what I’m made of
I wish there was a simple answer or just any way out of this
I hate the person I’ve become with everything such amiss
I wake up every morning telling myself today I can change
But within moments upon waking that hope just fades away
I cannot control this sadness and my face burns from the tears
I never thought I’d cry this way again after all these years
Now I learn it’s just begun for me, a new battle I must face
A battle that cannot be won but only kept at bay
I cannot express the pain that just rips me apart inside
I am so afraid to be myself, I just want hide

Just putting it out there...

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