Too long in detail to go on here as I could write a "book" and I am sure I am not the only one....After a bad breakup with a boyfriend I guess I put myself on house arrest..My mother's failing health, abusive stepfather, difficult small family with sister, niece and nephew which is all that is left.

My mother passed away this past September and I had to deal with an enormous amount of stress when she was in the nursing home plus my family...Small health issues that scared the hell out of me and thank God so far so good except for another issue now...

I guess what really threw me is that I was working with a so-called anxiety specialist from Pa....I live in New York..It was only an online phone call, but I was speaking with her for several years off and on and she helped me through many anxiety attacks and feelings...She herself had suffered immeasureably from anxiety, panic attacks, agrophobia and every other kind of phobia...She then became a Phd. in "anxiety problems"...I found her name on a forum and that's how I contacted her..

Too make a long story short, several days ago I spoke to her and she mentioned the same things for me to try with volunteering, socializing, etc. which I had researched myself and it was a bad day for me emotionally and I raised my voice...Not so much at her just plain frustration with it all...She is well to do and I am in debt and cannot do most of the things that she suggested to me...I even wrote her an e-mail that night apologizing for my frustration...The next morning I get an e-mail back from her saying she was not upset with me, but said we should take a "BREAK" from the therapy as she felt it was not productive and morphing into an anger and rage session (which it wasn't)...She absolutely devastated me because I am estranged from whatever family I have left and except for a friend here and there I am "ALONE" at this stage of my life and I am more anxious then ever...I am trying to get into other social groups but this is a TOUGH town, but unfortunately I live here and can't go anywhere outside of the State on my own because of my debt situation and truly don't want to do it alone unless I met someone...

So, I am going to send her an e-mail like she sent me telling her how devastated I was that she dropped me after so many years by an E-MAIL and by not even giving me the opportunity to speak with me about this! I was shocked and appalled! And, even some of the therapists and friends I had spoken to about the way that she handled this said it was rude and unprofessional and there isn't any therapist that should just drop someone like this with an E-MAIL....Maybe, her old demons came back to haunt her and she couldn't deal with my anger and frustration even though it wasn't directed at her at all....

I have been so upset by this that I am getting pains in my chest off and on due to the anxieity...I have a couple of health issues that have to be checked out and this situation is not helping me one bit...

I am deeply saddened by her attitude and never thought this woman would be that mean to do something like that to me as she knows me pretty well and my background and even said in her e-mail that I am a kind and good person...So,who does something like this to someone when they are at their lowest? That's about it!

Thanks for any advice...(And, I can't believe I am on this forum, but here I am)....