Thank you all so much for the support.

I will think about writing something down for her. I would have to take it to the session as I don't have her email and only have her mobile for emergencies. I've never shared anything I've written, so perhaps it would be a way of showing her how important this is. I'm just afraid she won't take it on board, or that she will shoot me down, and I will wind up feeling even worse. It took a lot of courage for me to tell her how I was feeling, and to keep pushing when she said I should move on.

Torn Mind, thwarted is exactly how I feel. I hated feeling as if I was asking for the wrong thing, or making more of the abuse than I should be. But I can't help it. I feel like all this stuff is bubbling up inside and I need help NOW!

I think you are all right about the CBT thing. In general she is very focused on the present and on the positive. I have been with her for four years and a lot of the time she has been helping me to deal with the current things in my life. She has listened to me about the past when it has come up, but I feel as if there are things we could have worked on more.

I think I have had this niggling feeling before that it might be time to move on to a diffent type of therapist. That is hugely scary in itself, and it's harder because I live in a place where English is not the main language. I have searched online for English-speaking therapists in my area and they all seem to be CBT types. I feel like I need a recommendation for someone but I don't know where to go to get it.

I'm not seeing her for two weeks, so i have while to think about things... But two weeks feels like a long time atm. Actually i am annoyed about this as well. I sometimes see her weekly and sometimes fortnightly, and at the end of the session she didn't even ask whether I wanted to come next week, she just wrote me in the diary for two weeks' time.

I'm so glad I posted here. I don't feel so alone now.