this is kind of a new thing, I'm experiencing, as i feel better, and I am able to do a couple of smaller activities like going out meeting friends, and all. I get this weird feeling, that I don't know who I am. I've been in this depressive episode for almost 8 months now, and in the last probably 3-4 months it was really deep, I wasn't able to really leave my home, only for short walks. No work, no university, not meeting friends, etc. And now, I'm jogging, and taking anti-depressants, going to therapy twice a week, and in the last 1 month it has started to get better, I feel better, I'm less fatigued, and I can go out to meet friends.

What I started to feel, is that it's really hard for me to get back to life. To a "normal life". It's hard, and that's why my name is "newlifeyeah", because obviously I want to change my ways which lead me to depression, so it's obvious, once I get out of depression I won't be the same person as I was before - in a good way hopefully - so what I feel now, is that I don't really know who I am.

I'm trying to make friends with myself, but it kind of freaks me out, the meds make me sort of relaxed, and sort of in a good mood, but I feel like, I still haven't layed down the fundaments of my "new life", and I feel insecure, I really feel like a little bird that just broke out of its egg...
I mean it still is a lot better than being completely in the dark hole, but I kind of start to realize, that even the "getting out of it" part is sort of difficult and has its own psychological challenges.

thanks for reading!