Thank you for saying so and for asking.

I did forgive him. I don't believe that he expected forgiveness and I do believe that some things are unforgiveable by their very nature, but I forgave him because I needed to be the kind of person that could forgive. I do not regret it.

I also had a window of opportunity where I could have really hurt him, when he was vulnerable to me because of an illness. I found myself loving him with an outpouring from my core self so strong that it was like I was almost on fire. And I have continued to love him because that is who he has been to me, someone that I have loved for all of my life. His unforgiveable acts don't change that.