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May 11, 2013, 09:05 PM
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Member Since: May 2013
Location: Western United States
Posts: 124
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I have been unemployed for 14 years now. When I was young, I was grooming myself for a demanding career in the arts. I was doing well in college until my junior year, when anxiety and depression finally took over my life.
People have always told me that I'm "very bright" and "sensitive" and suggest that I will someday go back to school and have a career, after all. I feel as though, because I can express myself intelligently, perhaps even be charming, that therapists and doctors can't see how much pain I am in. Even when I am doing everything I can to take good care of myself, I still don't have the energy or courage to go back to school, let alone get a job. When I have tried to take college classes again, I usually end up withdrawing or dropping out because I have a lot of difficulty with my memory and the anxiety becomes intolerable.
I feel so hopeless.
The last time I tried to get a job, I got no calls after submitting applications. It's been over a decade since then, so I feel there's no way to explain what I have been doing with myself since then, even if I had the energy to try again.
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